I’m not even beyond questioning the fact that all I seem to ever do in my online blog is post filtered photos from my instagram— small and bits of pieces from my life right now.

I like to think that this measly effort on something that before was actually a top priority of mine is just a pitiful indication that I actually have a life already— a life too busy to blog about.

Or maybe it’s just because I’m so scared that I spend my time quivering instead of my usual blog-ranting. Or maybe, I’m just waiting. For what? I don’t know. But, I am waiting.

Then I think, I am never the one to wait. I hate waiting. I was never born with the magnificent gift of patience in waiting.

OR MAYBE. Maybe, I’m just not accustomed to qwerty touch screen just as inept as I was before at qwerty buttons.

Oh, wait. A LIST!

THINGS I WOULD LIKE TO TALK ABOUT (IF ONLY I BLOGGED MORE VIGILANTLY)

(1) I like to rant on how stressed I am but the lack of sleep and the sad complaining state of my digestive system are topics that have gone and returned from hell. A dry discussion of those would only lead to further distress and panic.

(2) I don’t like to talk about this but ten years from now, I would wonder how I feel and I don’t want to guess. I would want to know. I’m okay with living in two houses at the same time. Some people would be confused and stressed out and be boggled by the physics of it all. Although it IS confusing and stressful AND mind-boggling, I feel okay with it. It is not a healthy living condition (with half your clothes in one house and half in the other, with having two toothbrushes and with getting all panicky because electronic chargers are left in the other house and i am on the other other house) but how can one even complain at that? The truth is, I feel so blessed. I am aware of world hunger and people having no clothes and shelter and with that, one can only thank God for all the blessings.

(3) On the brighter side of things, my room looks more like a room now rather than the initial impression of being a library. I bought a framed fabric photo and a framed glass photo of New York and placed it in my wall (my plan since well… forever.) I also placed trinkets in each of the shelves.

(4) Regarding #2, I’ll probably live in Metropolis full time after graduation.

(5) Sometimes, I wonder. But wondering gets me so tired. So I just stop wondering and just do things.

(6) After PNLE, all the time in the world will be mine and all the old movies from old Hollywood will be mine. Loljk. I’ll probably go and find a temporary job.

(7) Maybe, it’s time for me to crash out some things in my to-do list.

(8) By the way, university week was really fun and I barely stepped into school. I went out with friends and ate good food. I did some shopping. I bought about five books! And, I went out of town with my family. Plus, I accomplished school work. Sigh. Moreplease.

(9) Goodbye, designer’s block!

(10) For some unknown reason, I am motivated to go to prom this year. My mother won’t let me have a dress made nor does she want me to borrow from dress shops. She wants me to buy a new and expensive off-the-rack prom dress. I DON’T WANT SOMETHING EXPENSIVE. I JUST WANT TO WEAR MY OWN DESIGN THAT I’LL HAVE FOR HALF THE MONEY I WOULD HAVE SPENT FOR A NEW DRESS IN A FANCY BRAND. If not for the fact that it’s my 2012 resolution to exert myself more to the world, I wouldn’t even bother anymore. ASDFGJKL.

(11) Just keep on swimming.